"I didn't know it was this bad," he admits quietly. He'd thought they just didn't like him and that maybe there had been one or two bad eggs in the mix. To know he'd been leaving among enough soldiers to mutiny and almost kill him and the few loyal disciples who had traveled with him was terrifying. He has no idea how he survived. He just remembers fire, fear, and chaos.
He sighs. "I wouldn't have told you if I did though." Since they were being honest? "I can handle getting killed. I can't handle one of you guys getting killed because of me."
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Lan Zhan spoons out some tea leaves into a cup and pours water from the little kettle on his desk into it. His smile grows at Wuxian's comment, his silent agreement of it.
With his husband's prompting, he gives his partner an appreciative glance. "Yuan, we'd like to give you a courtesy name to go along with you accepting my last name as your own."
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He sighs. "I wouldn't have told you if I did though." Since they were being honest? "I can handle getting killed. I can't handle one of you guys getting killed because of me."
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Lan Zhan spoons out some tea leaves into a cup and pours water from the little kettle on his desk into it. His smile grows at Wuxian's comment, his silent agreement of it.
With his husband's prompting, he gives his partner an appreciative glance. "Yuan, we'd like to give you a courtesy name to go along with you accepting my last name as your own."