"Easy, they're not," he states very matter-of-factly. "They're supposed to give in to me right away and just let me love them."
Except no one has ever actually let him do that. Mostly because no one has seen him as someone capable of it, which has hurt more than he ever let one. He might be bitter but he wasn't made of stone. Huaisang saw what others didn't, even in him. How could he do anything but appreciate that in return?
He breathes a laugh at the desire part, but he smiles flattered. The rest, he can very honestly admit to as being a mutual feeling. "Nor I you," he admits, running his hand through Huaisang's hair lightly. "I don't know where this side of me has come from. I thought what I was giving Ouyang Anju was .. enough." But it wasn't like this. He could recognize that. He didn't treat her like he was treating Huaisang. Of course, she hadn't treated him.. well, no reason to get into all that now.
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"Composing? You're making your own song?" He asks, amazed. That was exciting! Not too many disciples have even tried that. It usually irritated the elders. Well.. it usually irritated Lan Qiren. Hanguang Jun never said a word and Zewu Jun, he was fairly supportive while he was around. Now that he was back, maybe this was the perfect time for those musically inclined to do so.
"What else would you play it on?"
Jingyi looks toward the guest building and considers simply going over there and searching around till he could figure this puzzle out. He was smart, he could figure this out! Something he wanted too..
What does he want? Wait, something he wants with Zizhen. He wants Zizhen. He-
"Oh!" His face lit with understanding and his cheeks quickly colored. He looks back at the letter in shock. The sweet man he was wanting to court him wants to stay in the guest rooms so they might have some privacy! "He.. he's coming back f- for that?" He asks, feeling giddy and his heart suddenly racing in his chest. How was he going to ever wait until he got here?!
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Except no one has ever actually let him do that. Mostly because no one has seen him as someone capable of it, which has hurt more than he ever let one. He might be bitter but he wasn't made of stone. Huaisang saw what others didn't, even in him. How could he do anything but appreciate that in return?
He breathes a laugh at the desire part, but he smiles flattered. The rest, he can very honestly admit to as being a mutual feeling. "Nor I you," he admits, running his hand through Huaisang's hair lightly. "I don't know where this side of me has come from. I thought what I was giving Ouyang Anju was .. enough." But it wasn't like this. He could recognize that. He didn't treat her like he was treating Huaisang. Of course, she hadn't treated him.. well, no reason to get into all that now.
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"Composing? You're making your own song?" He asks, amazed. That was exciting! Not too many disciples have even tried that. It usually irritated the elders. Well.. it usually irritated Lan Qiren. Hanguang Jun never said a word and Zewu Jun, he was fairly supportive while he was around. Now that he was back, maybe this was the perfect time for those musically inclined to do so.
"What else would you play it on?"
Jingyi looks toward the guest building and considers simply going over there and searching around till he could figure this puzzle out. He was smart, he could figure this out! Something he wanted too..
What does he want? Wait, something he wants with Zizhen. He wants Zizhen. He-
"Oh!" His face lit with understanding and his cheeks quickly colored. He looks back at the letter in shock. The sweet man he was wanting to court him wants to stay in the guest rooms so they might have some privacy! "He.. he's coming back f- for that?" He asks, feeling giddy and his heart suddenly racing in his chest. How was he going to ever wait until he got here?!