Zizhen looks uncertain for a moment before deciding he would take this risk for the sake of his friend, and also because it sounded like fun. He nods
"I can say I was looking for one of them, if somebody finds me, I'll think up a question i wanted to ask." Even if it's a dumb question he's pretty sure they won't realise what he's actually up to. He isn't sure how much he'll be able to find out, but it's worth a try.
"Okay, I'll find Liling and go see what I can find out," he decides with a nod "I'll be back soon."
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He's weirdly relieved that Lan Zhan doesn't just immediately tell him he has the wrong end of the stick totally, as intimidated as he is by the possibility he thinks being told that wasn't the case would feel like a rejection under the circumstances.
"Displease isn't really the right word... it's a surprise, I think, to me, and it's.. it's something I'm scared I'm not worthy of? But I want to be. I want to be good enough that I can be an heir you could all be proud of. I want to be worthy of the trust you've placed in me by giving me this sword."
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Zizhen looks uncertain for a moment before deciding he would take this risk for the sake of his friend, and also because it sounded like fun. He nods
"I can say I was looking for one of them, if somebody finds me, I'll think up a question i wanted to ask." Even if it's a dumb question he's pretty sure they won't realise what he's actually up to. He isn't sure how much he'll be able to find out, but it's worth a try.
"Okay, I'll find Liling and go see what I can find out," he decides with a nod "I'll be back soon."
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He's weirdly relieved that Lan Zhan doesn't just immediately tell him he has the wrong end of the stick totally, as intimidated as he is by the possibility he thinks being told that wasn't the case would feel like a rejection under the circumstances.
"Displease isn't really the right word... it's a surprise, I think, to me, and it's.. it's something I'm scared I'm not worthy of? But I want to be. I want to be good enough that I can be an heir you could all be proud of. I want to be worthy of the trust you've placed in me by giving me this sword."