"We all have our own way of coping with the situations we find ourselves in," Huaisang says thoughtfully - it's not actually a question he's really been asked before now "For me... I was overwhelmed and lost and uncertain after what happened to da-ge, so it was an easy persona to lean into, and one that had the added bonus of making people underestimate me."
People like his brother's murderer, but Huaisang doesn't want to go out of his way to remind Jin Ling why he might have conflicted feelings about him.
"And... you don't, not really. I can give you my word that I acted on feelings I have had for a long time, but I never planned to act on those feelings, and that I am over the moon those feelings are returned... but if you don't trust me, you're not going to start trusting me simply because I've said you should. I hope you will come to see that I only want what is best for Cheng, and I would never endanger his heart or his reputation, but I'm afraid all I can do to convince you that my feelings are genuine is to leave you to draw your own conclusions."
It's not quite what he'd intended to discuss, but he's not surprised Jin Ling is asking the question.
~~~
Wuxian gives his best perfectly innocent look. It fools nobody.
Yuan smile softly at both his parents, he's already feeling tired even though he only just woke up, but his body's working hard to heal and that's leaving him sleepy.
"Yes, please, I would like that." he says, to the talk of Lan Zhan playing for him.
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2021-11-01 00:54 (UTC)"We all have our own way of coping with the situations we find ourselves in," Huaisang says thoughtfully - it's not actually a question he's really been asked before now "For me... I was overwhelmed and lost and uncertain after what happened to da-ge, so it was an easy persona to lean into, and one that had the added bonus of making people underestimate me."
People like his brother's murderer, but Huaisang doesn't want to go out of his way to remind Jin Ling why he might have conflicted feelings about him.
"And... you don't, not really. I can give you my word that I acted on feelings I have had for a long time, but I never planned to act on those feelings, and that I am over the moon those feelings are returned... but if you don't trust me, you're not going to start trusting me simply because I've said you should. I hope you will come to see that I only want what is best for Cheng, and I would never endanger his heart or his reputation, but I'm afraid all I can do to convince you that my feelings are genuine is to leave you to draw your own conclusions."
It's not quite what he'd intended to discuss, but he's not surprised Jin Ling is asking the question.
~~~
Wuxian gives his best perfectly innocent look. It fools nobody.
Yuan smile softly at both his parents, he's already feeling tired even though he only just woke up, but his body's working hard to heal and that's leaving him sleepy.
"Yes, please, I would like that." he says, to the talk of Lan Zhan playing for him.