Yuan holds him and listens silently as he gets through the explanation. For a long moment, he doesn't say anything at all - he can't, he doesn't have any words to express how all of this makes him feel, he isn't even sure how all of this makes him feel.
I want you to go
It stings, feels like a knife in his heart. It makes sense, it does, he's been the cause of so many problems for Jin Ling, it's better this way, even if it's clearly breaking both of their hearts.
He can see that much, at least, can tell that Jin Ling still feels the same way, even if he has to make this decision.
If the circumstances were any different, he'd leap at the chance - a family? A life away from what he's known? The chief cultivator himself willing to accept him as a son despite his background? He never would have even thought to dream of such a thing. Some part of him does want that.
But a much larger part of him just wants Jin Ling.
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2021-08-20 00:32 (UTC)I want you to go
It stings, feels like a knife in his heart. It makes sense, it does, he's been the cause of so many problems for Jin Ling, it's better this way, even if it's clearly breaking both of their hearts.
He can see that much, at least, can tell that Jin Ling still feels the same way, even if he has to make this decision.
If the circumstances were any different, he'd leap at the chance - a family? A life away from what he's known? The chief cultivator himself willing to accept him as a son despite his background? He never would have even thought to dream of such a thing. Some part of him does want that.
But a much larger part of him just wants Jin Ling.
"I don't want to leave you." He whispers.
Please don't make me leave you