Ruined, he's completely ruined, no other [person] is ever going to compare. The words somehow echo in his own mind at that precise moment.
He can't believe anyone would trust in him so much that he could tell them he'd literally put a sleeping spell on them and they weren't afraid at all. There wasn't a soul on this earth he believed in as much as that and yet, he'd managed to earn that kind of trust from someone else. Sure, there were people he should trust like that. Jiujiu would never harm him and Wuxian but what if.. he'd thought that before. He'd believed in family at other times and had nearly had his head cut off!
He reaches out and pulls Yuan to him tightly, burying his face in his shoulder. He hopes he moved fast enough to prevent the other boy from seeing the tear. It was unlikely as this whole thing had caught him by surprise so much. Whatever the case, he holds on as though his life depends on it and uses every ounce of willpower not to let any more tears fall.
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He can't believe anyone would trust in him so much that he could tell them he'd literally put a sleeping spell on them and they weren't afraid at all. There wasn't a soul on this earth he believed in as much as that and yet, he'd managed to earn that kind of trust from someone else. Sure, there were people he should trust like that. Jiujiu would never harm him and Wuxian but what if.. he'd thought that before. He'd believed in family at other times and had nearly had his head cut off!
He reaches out and pulls Yuan to him tightly, burying his face in his shoulder. He hopes he moved fast enough to prevent the other boy from seeing the tear. It was unlikely as this whole thing had caught him by surprise so much. Whatever the case, he holds on as though his life depends on it and uses every ounce of willpower not to let any more tears fall.